Monday, July 06, 2009
I had been thinking about the subject of death lately. Might be linked to the recent demise of Micheal Jackson. Death usually occur in a sudden way. It will be nice if there were some ways to predict it. It will be nice to say goodbye to my loved ones before leaving them forever.
For example, would MJ still be rehearsing hard for his come back shows if he were to know that he was going to pass away on that fateful Tues night? What will you be doing if you know that you are going to leave this world soon?
Baby was playing Sims 3 at my home the other day. For the unknown, Sims 3 is a PC based game where you get to be a character and live a virtual life till you die. One thing that strike me was the sadness feel by her other half when he was the one left behind by the woman he loved the most.
All of a sudden, I felt frighten. What if the same was to happen to me? Would I have live the last moments with Baby differently?
That's why I am constantly reminding myself to be nice to my friends and loved ones. Life is real fragile. One can never predict when is the goodbye you just spoken be the last one heard by the other party.
I tried not to bear grudges now. In some way, age had mellow me. I am not as hot headed as before. I tried to appreciate all the little things in life. Things like a morning message from the lady of my life, a glass of water from mum, a message asking for a game of Dota from my friends, a simple dinner with my friends etc.
If I were to move on suddenly, I hope that it will be a celebration of my life. I do hope that I had made a difference in the lives of my friends. Hopefully, the difference is in a positive manner. If it is not to be, do forgive me. It is not easy to have played a part in someone's life when there are billions of people out there in this world.
Tears will definitely be shed. We are human after all. Death is a way frighten and engross me at the same time. Do we really go to heaven and join our loved ones or we have to go through the cycle of life again? I don't think we can ever get an answer.
Time for my bed. Just want to let all those who read this that I want to say a big thank you for being part of my life. Be it used to or an active role now. I give thanks for the blessing that I had gotten from all of you. Especially for Baby and my beloved Mum. For I will be nothing without her.
Labels: Life
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
10:55 PM
10:55 PM
Sunday, July 05, 2009
If you are living in planet Earth, I am quite sure that you would had read news that Micheal Jackson had passed on due to cardiac arrest. I was in shock on that morning when I read about the news on Channel News Asia. Sadness seep in after the initial shock as I had lost someone whom I idolized greatly when I was a child.
I remembering standing in awe in front of electronic stores selling television sets that were showing his MTV. Hits like Smooth Criminal and Thriller were two Mtvs that left an indelible mar on my childhood. I tried dancing like him but failed ultimately as my body is simply not make for dancing.
God had given him a talent to create great music that can break down all barriers. Be it race, language or religion. You just can't help but to groove along with his songs or stand still there watching his Mtvs. It is just sad that with the talent came along the unwanted baggage of having a lonely life.
People don't normally realize what greatness is until it had left us. I don't think there will ever be another King of Pop. I am just glad that people of my generation had the great privilege of seeing him when he was in his prime. Rest in peace. Sad I might be but all party must come to an end. I am just glad that you had left a great legacy of music to all of us.
I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
And No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
Take A Look At Yourself, And
Then Make A Change
Labels: Life
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
10:55 PM
10:55 PM
Thursday, April 30, 2009
A song for a good friend of mine. I think suit you to a T. I hope you find the Ms Right soon. :)
多情种
你说的话 总是 言不由衷
我不想骗你 可是 我真的都懂
我们是否心有 灵犀一点通
你的笑容是那么真实如梦
能否带我走出人生的迷宫
幸福的爱情 人说 千载难逢
美丽的恋爱 永远朦朦胧胧
迷人的眼神 和你的一举一动
让我相信 再荒谬的恋情
也有一片蔚蓝的天空
莫笑我 生来就是一个多情种
努力努力让的的爱情故事 与众不同
莫笑我 生我就是一倨多情种
努力不让我的情网落空
想念着你 谁能说爱人的心
不是冷漠世界里 最温柔的风
Labels: Life
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
11:22 PM
11:22 PM
Sunday, April 26, 2009
I had finally began my study leave. Ironical for someone like me to have been looking forward towards it when my days in Poly were infamous for the high rate of absence from my class. People do grow old and have a shift in their mentality. I believe that it is for the better though at times minds get corrupted by the temptation of money and power. Things that are the barometer of happiness for many living on this lovely planet.
My barometer of happiness had been and always will be in giving help and joy to people around me. The ironic part of these is that money plays a part in it. A good example will be the countless stream of elderly people peddling tissue papers or collecting cans. We can either buy their wares from them or send them to an elderly home but all these required something called money.
Is money the root of all evils or the antidote for all evils? I am still figuring this out as I ages but I do hope that my life will not be just about chasing the next dollar or the next higher position in the corporate world. Part of me think that by learning more about economics and finance I might be able to contribute to a better world. Another part of me is saying that the honest truth of me learning this is simply that Banking is the sector that gives the highest pay cheque.
Like it or not but those idiots at Wall Street that had plunged the world into one of the deepest recession in the world are still going to get a much higher pay than most of the average S'poreans. Ain't Economists people who understand the law of economics and help the world enjoy stable growth? Or had they been corrupted by the promise of easy cash which they can gain with their knowledge?
I think I think too much at times. The top priority now is to sort my mind out and be ready for the exams. For people who long for a satisfactory degree in any business modules, look no further than UOL. You will be in for the ride of your life. This is something that I can be DAMN sure of. Ha.
Labels: Life
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
11:52 PM
11:52 PM
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Punches and blows.
Hurt it might cause to the flesh
Pain I will feel
But it is no way comparable
To harsh words that is thrown at you
By thou you love and treasure
Bleed in the heart I feel
Sight of it I can't see
Deep is the cut
Pain is the utmost
Tears had been shed
Scars I will be left with
Ay me! for aught that I could ever read,
Could ever hear by tale or history,
The course of true love never did run smooth;
But either it was different in blood—
Labels: Life
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
11:43 PM
11:43 PM
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Happy 2009 to all. I know this sounds a bit late considering that Chinese New Year is just around the corner. The reality of life starts to bite in when you know that you have not much time doing something that you had always liked. For me, that's writing down my thoughts and views. I am not too bothered by it at the moment. For I know that the reasons why I am writing less and less is good for me in the long term. Thank you UOL!!
Just read through my posts in 2008. I am beginning to write less and less. For obvious reason, the post drop to near zero after August. :) Smart friends out there will know what I mean.
Looking back in 2008, I can't have much complains. Honestly. For once, I think my past year had been quite good. Coming from a guy who like to write and whine, this is a pleasant surprise.
Trying to recap what makes it so good. I feel that I had became more competent in my job. Not trying to boast but I think I am quite good at what I am doing now. Problem is this is not a job nor industry that I can see myself working in forever. The good thing about construction is that you will literally seen all types of people in life that no one can actually surprise you with his mannerism. Maybe it is the IN thing to shout or be nasty to your contractor for he is JUST a contractor. Anyway, I tried not to let idiots make my life miserable. This is what I always tell myself. Happiness is a choice that you make on your own. Not others.
I also started the long path to my long awaited degree. It seem like yesterday that I had my first lesson and now my exams will be here in May. Time for me to put more effort in my revision if I am to get the Bsc in Economics and Finance from London School of Economic and Political Science.
Though I spent most of my living breath complaining about how difficult the modules are, I know that it is a good and recognized degree. Hopefully I will still be of sane mind when I do get my hand on that degree.
The most defining moment for me in 2008 is to have you. Honestly, this sentence took quite a while for me to type it out. Still can't quite believe that we are really together. Every morning when I look into the mirror, I got to pinch myself to make sure that I am not dreaming. Just what I have on me to attract someone like you? Looks? (I try not to pinch myself when I think that this is the reason. Ha) Character wise? Talent? (If finding good food to eat can be consider a talent)
I think our relationship is based on knowing each other for over 10 years, seeing what the other had went through in life and slowly falling in love with each other. Falling in love. God. I can't believe I am writing this on my blog.
Love. Yes. I think I am in it with you. Five months strong and hopefully this new found heart beat of ours will goes a long way.
I think the video below best summarize how I feel now.
Come what may
Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
Want to vanish inside your kiss
Everyday I love you more and more
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sings
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change winter to spring
But I love you until the end of time
Come what may, come what may
I will love you until my dying day
Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you
And there's no mountain too high no river too wide
Sing out this song and I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather and stars may collide
But I love you until the end of time
Come what may, come what may
I will love you until my dying day
Oh come what may, come what may
I will love you
Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place...
Come what may, come what may
I will love you until my dying day
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
11:10 AM
11:10 AM
Tuesday, December 02, 2008
For a slight minute, I kinda forgot that I have you around. My own blog. Ha. I think I am a bit out of touch here. The last post I wrote was in Aug or earlier than that? For all I know maybe no one even bother about you nowadays. I am just glad that you are someone who I can vent out my emotions with. For you do one thing that all guys want their ladies to do. Just listen. :P
A lot of changes had happened in my life recently. My part time studies is literally killing me, zapping every ounce of energy I have and rendered me lifeless on Tue, Wed, Fri and days after the above. Sometime I will ask myself this. Why in the world am I doing all these for? I know you guys will laugh when I say this but I want to help the world.
Economics is something that is essential. It can help to eradicate poverty if use correctly. This is something that I firmly believe in. The way to do it is to join the Statutory Board when I graduated. Implementing policy that will help them. Even if I were to work all life long in the private sector when I graduate, I will still want to help people move out of the poverty cycle by giving away parts of my income. Be it from my own drawn salary or investment. I know I am nothing now. But I long for the day that I can help others.
I had also gotten an important person in my life now. I am a private person. All I can said is that I had known her for a damn long time and just glad that she is mine after a long hiatus. I thank you for the support and encouragement you had shown me. Different we might be but in a way, we seem to make up for each other shortfall. I think you are doing the above more than I do. Cause I just made you angry again with some badly chosen words. Nonetheless, I am sure we will work this out. Like we always do.
The event with the most impact on me thus far must be the resignation of my good friend from the company I am working in. First, I must say a big thank you to him. For giving me a chance to learn what is having a job all about. Not just longing for the paycheck, checking on the clock for the time to go off, doing just what you think should be done and not bothering to think if a task can be done better. Put it simply. Responsibility and respect for my job. I am proud to say that I don't feel that I had wasted anytime in my current job. The industry might not suit me but the attitude that I had learn is worth more than any bucket of gold out there.
I don't know your real reasons for leaving. I am sure you know what you are doing. I wish you the best. For only the best will suit friends of mine. Not being lame but having a best friend in me deem you the right to have the best in life. Ha. :)
As human beings, our greatness lies not so much in being able to remake the world - that is the myth of the atomic age - as in being able to remake ourselves. .
Labels: Happenings in life
You can take a picture of something you see. In the future where will I be?
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